So, Lucy and I have this thing that we started doing, which, by the way, especially if you have a tween in your house, I feel like this is a really great idea, but I bought like a mom daughter journal on Amazon and it's become kind of like our bedtime tradition over the past couple of months where it's the one that we bought is really cool where we fill it out together, but she fills out a page and then I fill out the next page and there are all these prompts in it. so you can kind of like learn more about your your daughter or she lucy can learn a little bit more about me and i can kind of gauge what's going on in her heart in her head and it's everything from like your favorite food to tell me about your favorite childhood vacation who are your best friends what was your best memory of your dad and fill them out together yeah so i sit in bed with her and instead of just like she's not my reader so she doesn't really ever sit in bed and read or anything and I don't let her have like her iPad in her room so I like to sit at the end of the day and kind of like download the day and then this is an activity that we do and it's been really enlightening and very meaningful to both of us well I realized the other day that she had skipped ahead and filled out a few pages without me which sometimes I'll have her do if I have to go and like get Smith down and get him settled to sleep and then I'll come back in and Lucy and I will finish. So she had gone ahead in the book. And this was like after I had put her to sleep. And so I went back to like read through what we had written for the night. And I noticed these extra pages. And one of the questions on the page that she had filled out without me was, if you could change anything about your life, what would it be? And her answer was like a punch in the stomach her answer was i wish my parents never got a divorce and she drew a little crying face next to it i was crushed like just tears because like to you kind of know that your child is thinking that or has thought that you know in several points along in their childhood or whatever since it happened but to actually see her write it out with that little crying face was just like, you know, man, that was so hard. So you read...