So for some time now, I've been in contact with a guy that you guys know, and I wanted to rekindle this relationship with him. oh no no i know and before you guys judge me because this is what i'm most nervous about i love this guy so much that i was willing to try again with him oh my goodness no no no no no no really yeah but unfortunately it's like when you are going back to the same thing that hurt you you're only going to get the same outcome. And that's what happened to me. So last Saturday, you know, I was spending time by myself and I was supposed to hang out with this said guy and he canceled on me for family reasons, which I understood. But that night I had the courage to tell him, I don't want to do life completely by myself. I want to have a companion, someone that I can share life with, someone I can get married to and someone I can have kids with. And as I was telling him this, I felt like he had no interest in what I was saying whatsoever. And he's like, we will talk about this tomorrow. And I was like, okay, next day comes, everything's fine. It's going good. And then he lays it down on me later on in the day over text telling me that he doesn't think he'll be able to get married in the time span that I want to get married in. And that he needs to let me go instead of working on things, which really.