No, what I want to know is when you're having this conversation, and you know what? I'll get serious with you. When you're having this conversation, my kids have had conversations with me in the past. and they've told me some things that they either wanted to do or didn't want to do that were, you know, they were out there. And I said to them, I go, have you prayed about this? And I do believe that there's a spiritual part to you. I do believe that you have a spiritual part. You obviously turn to your therapist to have a conversation. Then you turn to your family. But then I think sometimes you got to pray about something. You thought through this through enough to be able to write a formal letter and say, hey, this is what I want to do. What is it that made you feel the most comforted since you've decided this decision? Was it a person? Was it something that you felt after, you know, waking up one morning? What was it?