I am, yeah. So a week from yesterday, and it's one of those things where it's just been taking up so much space in my brain for the past couple of months that I am so ready to have this over with. And anybody who's ever had any kind of like little health scare knows it just weighs on you, right? Until you can get some answers. And Mike, this actually goes back to, um, it was something that you were talking about. I can't even remember that prompted me to finally go and get the mammogram. Oh, I pulled a muscle in my back. Yes. Yes. So this was like end of the summer, beginning of the fall. Um, and so I, I went to get it done. Dr. Werner had been wanting me to get it done for like a year or two. I had that dang prescription in my purse. It had like expired by the time that we had that conversation and I had, I had to get another one, but I went to, um, I went to get my mammogram done before I even got home. They had called me for a follow-up mammogram, which they said, by the way, is very normal for a first time. So I was prepared for that. They don't know what, what your boobs look like. You know, they don't have anything to compare to. So I, that, I, that did not scare me at all. Well, that second mammogram led to an ultrasound of some enlarged lymph nodes that they saw in my underarms. And then it kind of just like has gone from there. That led to another ultrasound. And then I had a biopsy of a lymph node done. And because that biopsy showed some not so great stuff um it showed like a a small subpopulation of what looks like lymphoma cells now i have to have a lymph node or several taken out and they're going to run a whole bunch of tests on them to rule out any sort of lymphoma in my body so super scary and have they talked i mean because i i'm